It's been awhile..

Since I last have a Monday after a well rested weekend.
These days been looking forward to weekends where I can spend time on a moment of doing nothing just sitting there with my favourite drink watching a good movie/reading a good book/flipping a magazine.

Past weekend was considered a good one because I get to do what I need to do e.g: washing my hand wash clothes, ironing the pile of clothes which has been sitting there for a week, get to go for a movie, get to have a good dinner with family and most importantly is my grandma is recovering good even though psychologically she thinks she's still weak. We brought her to see our family doctor ( even he is not well now) he did advised that her sugar might be too low causing her to feel dizzy the moment she got hungry. So she will lowered her medication dosage until she's stronger.

Early Sunday morning was occupied by making brunch, settling dad, iron clothes and finally got a chance for an evening nap!! Can't remember when was the last time I had one.
That was followed by a superb mum's cooking dinner, one of dad's friend gave us a virgin male chicken! The size of the chicken's thigh is the size of my lower arm (the part between my elbow and my wrist). Huge chicken which look almost like a turkey. We also had mum's green curry fish. Fully loaded with good food then I watched Masterchef with dad ( food again). How could one live without good food? - Impossible -

Talking bout food, I guess I'm kinda craving for some bites now. It's 30 mins to off work.
Looking forward for dinner.

- food the best medicine -

So What's the Problem now GUYS??

Question number 2:
How many guys are lifeless out there?
Answer:
Unknown unless there's some research being done but in my world lifeless guys cannot be categorise into the group call "little".

Question number 1:
What do you mean when we say a guy is lifeless?
Answer:
No specific definition but generally it could mean someone who does not have their own life to take charge or be responsible of without having anybody else in the picture. To me it basically means IF this guy fits the following point below:

• Have no idea what are they doing with their life after 20 years of living
• Have no idea what are their priorities & responsibilities for themselves
• Have no idea what to do during their free time / better understand as no hobby(ies)
• Have no friend(s) whom they can confide in
• Cannot live happily without a girlfriend / a regular female friend who can temporarily or permanently satisfy their gender needs

Question number 3:
Why am I asking questions like this?
Answer:
This is because in a realistic world that I'm in consist of a few guys whom have I would say disgraced the man species. The disappoint in me is as such that I felt these guys is better are of girls or they should not show themselves to the world till they man up or grow some brains in the proper place where you call skull.

One is a two face fake friend, one is a jerk whom should have rotten eggs to throw on their car windscreen and another one should take up "How to Respect a Girl" lesson regularly so that it seeps into their mind and soul to earn some respect back for themselves.

If I were a boy~........I'll be so fly than these individuals..

OR maybe it's just me to have such perception but then again guys out there who still have your standards, do keep it well before the real manhood extinct.

-how to mend a disgrace S.O.S-

"Ji De" ( Remember )

A song by Ah Mei :

(Chorus:)
Shei hai ji de shi shei xian shuo yong yuan de ai wo
Anyone remember who's the one who first said you will always love me
Yi qian de yi ju hua shi wo men yi hou de shang kou
What we've spoken then has now left a scar in us
Guo le tai jiu mei ren ji de dang chu na xie wen rou
As time passes no one remembers the passion we use to have
Wo he ni shou qian shou shuo yao yi qi zou dao zui hou
As we hold each other's hands and said that we will be together till the end of time

Wo men dou wang le zhe tiao lu zou le duo jiu
We have forgotten how long we have been together
Xin zhong shi qing chu de you yi tian you yi tian du hui ting de
Deep in our hearts we know that one day this will stop
Rang shi jian shuo zhen hua sui ran wo ye hai pa
But let time speak the truth eventhough I'm afraid of what's coming
Zai tian hei le yi hou wo men dou bu zhi dao hu bu hui you yi hou
In the end we would not know whether we will have our future together

Shei huan ji de shi shei xian shuo yong yuan de ai wo
Yi qian de yi ju hua shi wo men yi hou de shang kou
Guo le tai jiu mei ren ji de dang chu na xie wen rou
Wo he ni shou qian shou shuo yao yi qi zou dao zui hou

Wo men dou lei le que mei ban fa wang hui zou
We're both tired and would have no idea how to turn back time
Liang ke xin dou mi huo zen me shuo zen me shuo dou mei yung jiu
Now that both our hearts are lost, we can no longe speak about forever
Qin ai de wei shen me ye xu ni ye bu dong
Why is this happening my love, I understand that you may not know
Liang ge xiang ai de ren deng dui fang xian shuo zhao fen kai de li you
Two person who's once in love is now waiting for each other to state the reason to be apart

Shei huan ji de ai qing kai shi bian hua de shi hou
Could you recall when is the moment that our love starts to change?
Wo he ni de yan zhong kan jian liao bu tong de tian kong
We no longer look at the same sky
Zou de tai yuan zhong yu zou dao fen cha lu de lu kou
The time has now come to a crossroad that we must choose
Shi bu shi ni he wo yao you liang ge xiang fan de meng
Is it because we no longer have the same dream?

Shei huan ji de shi shei xian shuo yong yuan de ai wo
Yi qian de yi ju hua shi wo men yi hou de shang kou
Guo le tai jiu mei ren ji de dang chu na xie wen rou
Wo he ni shou qian shou shuo yao yi qi zou dao zui hou

Wo he ni shou qian shou shuo yao yi qi zou dao zui hou

Here comes the Chinese New Year

As we all had waited patiently, the result turned out to be cancer positive but it is a benign one. As advised by the doctor it is not necessary for my grandma to go through chemotherapy.
Thank god and thank everybody who prayed for us.
She is slowly recovering now even though she's a bit weak but at least its a huge relief that the doctor did not say she must go through the chemotherapy.

How many years could an average one person have in a lifetime? She is already 73 years old.

We don't need to wait or to know what are our remaining days to action on whatever we have in mind. Might as well seize the moment be it wrong or right, we've done it with no regrets.

Life is too short for unhappy things, too short for complains and unnecessary worries. There is no point to dwell into things which does not benefit or upset us in any way.

Sometimes when we ought to get angry with something or when we felt certain part of our life aren't going our way, its only bits and parcel of life. It comes in a package. Just like you order McD McValue meal. It comes with a fries, a drink and burger. If you would like to choose another drink then you need to pay more. So if we aren't happy with the package of life with all the elements it has in it, we've got to pay more one way or another. The choice is ours.

SO the year of Rabbit has usher in. Hope it will bring much more happy returns for everybody=). I still remember it is a sunny day on new year's eve. Hopefully it will continue to stay sunny throughout the year.

It's the second day of new year today, I came back to work to get my extra earnings. Since my work off at 4pm. I guess its not too bad to work early and off early. Plus its a Friday today, I can have my well deserved sleeping time tomorrow.

I shall end today's blog with the hope of being able share many more happy things for the rest of the year.
Have a prosperous, warmth and joyful new year everybody!

- I learn to be more happy with little things -

In search of silver linings

Grandma got admitted to hospital.

After one week she thought everything is normal, we don't want to take things easy anymore.

Took her for check up and scan and then confirmed that she's got a tumor in her colon which stops her from clearing her bowel like normal people do.

After CT scan, diagnosed scans and all sorts of checking, finally we got a clear explanation from Dr. Qureshi.

Dad ask: "So is it cancer?"

Doctor said: " Well, it looks like a duck and talks like a duck...so...(everybody looks at every body's face) Anyway, we'll still need to wait for the biopsy after the surgery to further define what the growth is. Chances are, IF it is, she will need to go through chemotherapy in the future after the tumor removal to kill the remaining cells ( which is the saddening and heartbreaking part ) IF it's not, then we're will just be waiting for her to recover from the surgery."

Uncle Mensh asked: "What's the percentage that it is?"

Doctor said: " Almost certainly"

My heart dropped trying to hold myself together and remain calm. But before anything is confirmed everyone of us put a light of hope in our hearts.

I've not left my grandma once the moment I was born. She knows me inside out better than anyone else. I possibly know her if not more, equally same like her own child knows her. I could not bare seeing her sad, the more I could not bare seeing her suffer. She's definitely the greatest mum and the loveliest grandmother.

She just got the tumor removed on 18/01/2011 and after being monitored in HDU, doctor said she recover better than expected (big relieved) so she has been transferred to normal ward as of yesterday, 19/01/2011 late evening.

The joint will be monitored if it has healed completely with no leakage, Dr. Qureshi said there's a 4% leakage. Everybody is praying hard and keeping our fingers crossed that that won't happen.

If it does leak, she'll need to carry an external bag for 2-3 months until the leakage heals completely. That will be devastating.

I'm skipped work second of the half of the day last few days and took family leave yesterday. Thanks to my kind manager who feels me and actually "shoo" me away from work.

Got back to work today even though it's public holiday. Well, I got pay more and many other people will be on leave to visit grandma so i decided to come back to work. Hopefully everything is good back at home and hospital.

Dad can't be 100% independent yet hopefully he remains positive to keep improving on his movements. Hope grandma can be patient because she is still on NaCl drip and could not take food yet.

I have a feeling that things are turning better and bad things are going to be over soon but before the end comes I'll still be wary with situations and changes. My colleague noted me that one day I will be proud that I've been strong to go through hurdles like this and I totally agree with her.

It's 30 minutes to off work and my mind is just waiting to go hospital to see my grandma smile and chat like nothing has happen.

I know everyone of us or the person that we love will leave us one day but thinking of that kills me. I do not think I could ever take that lost. Most probably I will go berserk? depressed? or maybe just stoned for months or lost for years.

-awaiting for the gloomy clouds to fade away-

Uh! Whhhy? Uh! Whhhy? Uh!

Chorus
I see you driving 'round town
With the girl I love and I'm like,
Forget you!
Oo, oo, oooo
I guess the change in my pocket
Wasn't enough, I'm like,
Forget you!
And forget her too!
Said, if I was richer,
I'd still be with ya
ha , aint that some shit?
And although there's pain in my chest
I still wish you the best with a...
Forget you!
Oo, oo, oooo

Yeah I'm sorry, I can't afford a ferrari,
But that don't mean I can't get you there.
I guess he's an xbox and I'm more atari,
But the way you play your game ain't fair.
I pity the fooool that falls in love with you oh
(oh shit she's a gold digger)
Well (just thought you should know nigga)
Ooooooh
I've got some news for you
Yeah go run and tell your little boyfriend

Repeat chorus

Now I know, that I had to borrow,
Beg and steal and lie and cheat.
Trying to keep ya, trying to please ya.
'Cause being in love with you ain't cheap.

now, I pity the fool that falls in love with you ohh
(oh shh she's a gold digger)
Well (just thought you should know nigga)
Ooooooh
I've got some news for youuh!
I really hate your friend right now!

Repeat Chorus

Now baby, baby, baby, why d'you wanna wanna hurt me so bad?
(so bad, so bad, so bad)
I tried to tell my mamma but she told me"this is one for your dad"(your dad, your dad, your dad)
Uh! Whhhy? Uh! Whhhy? Uh!
Whhhy lady? Oh! I love you
I still Love you!! Ohhhh...

Repeat chorus

By Cee-Lo Green From the album The Lady Killer (2010)

- I is like this song=) -

Nuevo Entorno

Just simply means "new environment"...

I've just moved into my new workstation today at the 7th floor previously from 14th floor.
I kinda love this new place, one of my favourite colour green and white^^..overall looks much brighter and spacious compare to my previous floor.
I get to choose to sit nearer to the sunshine of course..now onwards I can not only see the sunshine but to feel the fuzzy warm from the sun rays it definitely the best thing to have.
Of course it takes some time to get to use to walking area around as which direction to head when I need to get my printouts, fill my water bottle, visit my fellow colleagues around the floor and heading to the loo..ehhe
No doubt I lurve "nuevo entorno" as always..haha! ( the Spanish influence from the movie: The Tourist- more review below)

Today is no blue Monday for me and its brighter than usual. I got a small gift for my sweet colleague as an "open workstation day", an apple shape manual calender and also a cute yellow polka dot umbrella from Azlin..thank you people~...

Got the chance to go for a movie yesterday with family and it was mum's suggestion to watch "The Tourist". I thought I wouldn't like the movie knowing that all Angelina Jolie's movies are almost the same- hot bod, hot moves, gun flipping and stunts BUT I guess I forget Johny Depp is involve this time!
I come to like the show, it's a little funny and romantic. Most scenes with AJ & JD together is accompanied with romantic background music plus its shot in Venice, breeze rushing through her hair, smoky eyes, romatico stares, chandeliers in the scene settings..the Venice feel is totally taking over and it works! I was smiling throughout the movie because its like a romantic comedy..heartwarming for a little movie leisure on a weekend=)

Sky's getting real dark outside on a Monday after work and I shall post up more the next time this new workstation gives me more inspiration..hasta entonces